Tuesday, December 30, 2008

My last week

This is my last week of leave. Crazy to think that the new year is here and I'm heading back to work. I know I shouldn't complain, I've had a 17 week leave but since I'm all about me right now I'm going to. On Friday I'm doing a test run, going in for a half day. I need to see what it'll take for me to be able to leave the house in the morning. And I think the half day will be good for Mr H. He seems to think that this is going to be a 6 week vacay for him. I'm just so sad that I won't be able to spend my days with her. She's just getting to be this sweet smiley little ball of love. And unfortunately she's turned into a bit of a momma's girl. There are many times when I've been the only one who can calm her down. That does not bode well for the next few weeks. I know she'll get over it and I'm not egotistical enough to think that I am in the only one who can care for her, but I am going to miss her like crazy. I really just like her, she's fun.

Although my sweet little lovebug seems to think that we are here for her constant amusement 24/7. She used to be the best sleeper at night, going down around 10, waking up to eat at 4, then back up around 7:30. Then about 2 weeks ago she started getting crazy fussy in the evening and I read that she probably needs an earlier bedtime. Well since we've done that she typically sleeps in 90 minute chunks and when we go in, she's all smiles and laughing. So starting yesterday there's no picking up and cuddling at night, just sticking the pacifier back in without eye contact. It feels so cruel but we all need to get some sleep!

Sweetness has had an exciting month. I took her down to Fl for my grandpa's 93rd birthday. She did AMAZING on the flight. I was nervous flying with her by myself but thankfully there are still nice, helpful people in the world. And to anyone who is flying soon, J.etblue has changing table in the bathrooms, apparently they are one of the few that do. I wasn't planning on changing her diaper on the short flight but Sweetness didn't read that memo. I think the whole plane wanted me to change that!

I hope everyone had a nice holiday. Mine was weird. On one hand, it was 1000 times better than last Christmas. Then I was praying that the IUI worked...and now I held the result in my arms throughout Christmas dinner. But my family still was incomplete. The holidays were so weird without my dad. Calling him on Christmas day to check in was just bizarre. And my mom has had just a horrible time. So guess the moral is something along the lines of the grass is always greener. I thought I would have everything I could possibly want but there was still a hole. (admittedly not as big as last year but a hole nonetheless)

Best wishes to everyone for 2009. I hope it brings you all the happiness in the world!


Adriane said...

Good to see an update from you. I'm sorry you have to go back next week! A dry run will be good for sure.

You are so brave to fly with Sweetness - I'm impressed. So glad she did well!

Happy Holidays!

Fertilized said...

Best Wishes to you. I will be thinking of you next week

infertility just sucks said...

It's my last week too! Back to work on Monday. BOOOOOO!!!

Can't wait to hear how it goes - good luck.

Julia said...

She will keep getting to be more and more fun. When I went back to work after Monkey, she was just walking and starting to do some other fun things. I thought it was most unfair that hubby got her at that age (for his paternity leave). But then I realized it would've been the same at any age. I am sure you know that, though... And it is still tough to leave that sweet little person, no matter when.

I am sorry there was such a huge hole in your holidays.

battynurse said...

Happy New Year!! Sorry you have to go back to work next week. I hope the transition goes mostly smoothly.
I laughed at your statement of the whole plane wanting you to change that diaper.

docgrumbles said...

Hope you have a great year and a decent transition back to work!