Let me preface by saying I recognize this was a stupid move.
But, in spite of my better judgement, I rented a doppler. First time I used it, I heard the woosh-woosh that they say is blood going through the placenta and the monitor registered something at 156. I told myself that even though I couldn't hear it, the monitor picked it up, so it must be there.
Last two times, I hear the woosh-woosh, but nothing else. And I've decided that monitor part is a piece of crap. Every few seconds it changes numbers, ranging from the 60's all the way to 180's. And that's with it in the same spot.
Now what I'm telling myself (and please don't burst my bubble), is that the placenta is blocking the baby. That's why I only hear that. Delusional perhaps, but it is the only thing that is allowing me to sleep at night. Plus, the manual very clearly says that you most likely will not hear anything in the first trimester. I have just read about so many people hearing the heartbeat around 9 weeks. I'm also telling myself (again, if you know what's good for you, don't disagree with me) that my belly bloat is getting in the way.
But it still makes the DBT's run rampant through my head. I've become really attached to this little thing and would like it to come join our family in September.
If anyone else hasn't been able to hear anything this early, let me know. I don't want to be one of those crazy women who calls the OB over this...because I know they'll be mad at me. The dr told me that they were for professionals to use. (I decided that injections and shots are typically for the professionals too and if they let me do that, I might as well get to do some of the fun stuff too).
Thanks for reading about all my neurosis!