Friday, February 1, 2008

Me and Donna Martin

We both graduated!! I've had "Donna Martin graduates, Donna Martin graduates" in my head all day long (except in my head, it was my name).

Ultrasound today went well. Measured 7w5d, so only 1 day off. Heart rate was 159. Got instructions on when to stop the Pr.ometrium. My doctor made all sorts of jokes with Mr H about me being the designated driver for the Superbowl. We also got forms to send in after DELIVERY! Yes, you read that correctly....delivery. And instructions to send baby pictures. I felt like I was living in an alternate universe for a while there. Kinda still feel that way.

The whole thing was very bittersweet. As glad (ecstatic) as I am that things are going well, I don't want to leave. I don't know what's out there. I know I've said it before, but I know how to do the infertile thing...not sure how to do this other thing. Plus, I have never had a more attentive doctor in my life. The man emails me back on a Friday night...I certainly don't do that for my clients. I'm hoping that the OB he recommended is almost as good.

I managed to stumble out of the office and proceeded to burst into hyseterical sobs at the elevator. The kind of sobs where you can't catch your breathe and someone needs to hold you up. Other people probably thought we just got the worst kind of news...not the best. And I continued to sob in the car. I guess it was part the immense sense of relief, part disbelief since I honestly never thought I would make it this far, part joy and excitement, and part being scared out of my mind.

I'm still kind of all over the place (in case you couldn't tell). Thanks for all of your support and good wishes. And I know I've been really bad at commenting, but I promise I'm reading and keeping up with all of you! I'm hoping tomorrow gets me out of my own head...going with my soon to be sis-in-law for her first dress fitting. Hopefully we'll be able to make a fun girls day out of it.

24 comments:

Maria said...

Congratulations on Graduating!! I can imagine your fear. You've developed a familiarity and sense of security with your RE. But your ready to move forward! I'm sure the OB is going to be just as awesome!!

K77 said...

Congratulations! Welcome to weirdness. It's almost like limbo, such unfamiliar territory. IF sucks, but at least it's familiar, this other thing though, I just don't know how to "do" it, much like you.

Jen said...

The best type of graduation imaginable! I am very happy for you. I'm sure you will find the perfect OB, even if it takes you a couple of tries.

Shelby said...

Congrats on your graduation!!! I'm so excited for you!! I know what you mean on knowing how to do the infertile thing, and not the actual pregnancy thing. It's such a weird place to be- it's almost like you don't fit in anywhere. But it really is a great place! Hopefully once you get further along, you'll get more used to the idea that you've got a little boy or girl growing in there! Or at least your pants will remind you!

Rebecca said...

Good for you! You're in the big leagues now. I too had a crying jaunt yesterday...sometimes you just need it! Take it easy!

Fertilize Me said...

great news! I am so happy for you and i know you are so happy for yourself!

Sunny said...

Woot Woot!!!!

Adriane said...

Yay, you graduated!! So glad baby looked good on the U/S!!

Egged Out said...

Yeah! It's good news and I hope your OB is just as good as your RE. If you don't like him/her, search for a new one. It makes a difference to have a great doctor.

Geohde said...

:)

Congratulations.

xx
J

Jen said...

Congrats on graduating from the RE's office!!!

sarah23 said...

Oh wow! What a fantastic feeling that must be!!!

I was the same high school year as the BH90210 crowd ('93), so I do remember Donna Martin's graduation! Tee hee. I think that yours is 10 million times more exciting, though! Yay!

Diana said...

Congrats!!! I think everyone has the same feeling when they graduate. We must all have such wonderful RE's. I sobbed almost hysterically the first time we saw the heartbeat. It felt realllllllly good to be sobbing over something so wonderful.

Morrisa said...

Congrats on your graduation!! I totally remember that episode of 90210!

Debby said...

Happy graduation!!!

A said...

Meghan - I got teary-eyed reading this post. Tears of complete happiness for you! Congratulations on the wonderful news at your U/S and thank you for sharing your news with us all. It brings me such great hope, and I appreciate that so much :)

Deena said...

You mean Monkey Cry?
Yes, I am quite familiar with that.

Just wanted to wish you the best and pray your pregnancy continues going so well!!!

Lea Bee said...

YAY! congrats on graduating! that is the best.

Jess said...

Congratulations!

chicklet said...

I swear I thought I already congratulated you but I guess not. Very good to hear - congrats!

SaraS-P said...

Ah, yes, I remember graduation being scary. I hope your regular old OB "gets" the experience of someone who had to struggle and fight to become a patient.

Ms Heathen said...

I'm so happy that all is well.

I don't know whether it's possible ever to leave infertility entirely behind, but I'm glad that you are at least able to leave the RE's office. I wish you every joy as you move forward with your pregnancy.

LIW (Lady In Waiting) said...

I am certain that I will cry too if we graduate from our RE. Both for the relief and for losing the amazing support system that I have developed there.

But SO glad that you made it. Congrats!!

XOXOXO

deanna said...

That's such wonderful news!! I'm so excited for you about this new big step! And, I bet your RE picked a really great OB for you. He knows what you need, and I'm sure he used good judgment. It's going to be great!