Shadows

11dpiui+6:15 pm+bladder held for just under 2 hours=the lightest of shadows on my last dollar tree test. It is the type of shadow only someone with 30 cycles under her belt can make out (well, it's a bit darker than that).

There is no way it would show up in a picture and I'm certainly not going to start cleaning out the shoe room just yet, but it's hard not to feel the slightest hint of excitement. And it should be faint, because it's still a little early, right? I've got a first response left too and that wins the honor of the first pee of the day tomorrow. Not to get too far ahead of myself, but if that is also positive I'll be begging to move my beta up from Monday to Friday.

Again, I can't let myself get too worked up and I'm not saying anything to Mr H just yet since I can't bare to disappoint him again. Or myself, since I now have the pleasure of knowing just how fleeting a pregnancy can be and how much a chemical sucks. If I make it past 4 days of positive sticks and a beta that goes up instead of down, I'll consider this one better than the last.

Speaking of Mr H, please keep him in your thoughts, he's having sinus surgery tomorrow morning and is understandably nervous. The worst part to him is that his nose will be packed for 24 hours so he won't be able to breathe. Think of me too, since he can be a bad patient. Really, really hoping I have some good news for him when he comes out of surgery. I won't tell him beforehand.

In other news, I am loving Mel's Creme de la Creme. If you haven't checked it out yet, it's a must read. And if you haven't submitted a post yet, she's still accepting them. I started looking at it yesterday but decided to save it for the next 2 days while I'm housebound with the recuperating Mr H. It is such an amazing collection and really seems to be an accurate portrayal of the diverse group we are.