that is the question.
I'm having dinner with my mom tonight. I see her all the time but never get her alone. The last few times we've been away together she's noticed that I'm not myself and so far has been pretty respectful. She'll ask if I'm ok, mention that I don't seem happy and when I lie through my teeth and tell her that I'm fine, just tired, etc and then she doesn't bother me about it until the next family vacay in 6 months or so.
And I want to start telling people. I have a large, crazy, amazingly loving and supportive family and we always rally whenever one of us needs something. It really is amazing and I know I'm incredibly lucky. I'm just not sure how to start the ball rolling...or if I even want to. Part of me wants to keep this private because it hurts and I've always hated showing any weakness or pain in front of other people, even those that won't judge me and love me regardless (I know, that's an issue I need to deal with but that's a whole other post). And it's private, incredibly private. Mr H tries to compare it to any other medical issue but it's more than that to me.
And I just don't know how to get the words out. When I told my future sister in law, it was essentially verbal diarrhea. She asked me to be in their wedding and I just started spewing all this stuff about maybe being pregnant but not knowing. And I ended up telling her the whole story, mainly because she was excited we were trying...and it really wasn't something to be excited about.
I know that once I tell, I can't un-tell and I just have to cross my fingers and hope that people are supportive. I just know there is so much potential to get hurt.
So any advice, words of wisdom for this?