Thursday, November 29, 2007

Get out the map

Every 2ww I analyze (hmmmm....over-analyze) my boobs looking for those tell-tale blue veins. I stand in my bathroom looking at myself in all sorts of light and usually manage to convince myself that I see one. Then I rest happily knowing that for sure, I'm pregnant. (yes, I realize that this is probably more information than anyone ever wanted to know about me). Then this morning, I am about to get in the shower and I actually jumped back in surprise. Holy crap, my boobs have an actual roadmap of nasty blue veins across them....I look disgusting! I've never seen anything like it. Yet another sign to make me think I might have a shred of a chance.

8dpiui and other than RandMcN.ally scattered across my chest, nothing else is going on. I'm going to try to wait until Sunday to test. That'll be 11 days. I want to make sure that darn trigger is out. Plus, I usually only have a 12-13 day LP so Sunday wouldn't really be that early. But, like I said, I'm going to try to wait. I make no promises.

Mel has a great post on why Christmas just sucks sometimes. I hate that I don't enjoy the holidays as much as I used to. And I know my family resents that I spend more time with the in laws since they don't celebrate Christmas. Even being around my niece for Hanukkah is easier than my cousin's kids at Christmas, not sure why. I've stopped sending out cards...because I don't want to get them back in return. Last year I got 2 cards where people announced their pregnancy. Talk about being blindsided. Since I can't hibernate, I've just stopped getting the mail. Mr H still does every few days but the catalogs go straight into the recycling bin, they never even make it into the house. Not sure what I'll do with the cards and newsletters when they inevitably start pouring in, I guess save them for a good day...I do have them occasionally.

16 comments:

battynurse said...

Hope this is all a very good sign and you are so right. Prometrium is the devil.

AwkwardMoments said...

hoping for good things to come of that symptom/sign watching.

I am sorry the holidays are tough for you. you aren't alone in that

HereWeGoAJen said...

Argh, I have those blue veins in my chest ALL the time. You mean other people only get them when they are pregnant?

Why not test now to make sure the trigger is out so that you can be sure any positive on 11 days is a real positive? A negative now might make you more certain of a positive then. Or at least it would me.

nickoletta100 said...

Hoping that roadmap is your first official sign!

Jenna said...

HPTs~ love/hate relationship.... well, mostly hate for me, but you might have something good going on there.

Here's to a better holiday season beginning in just a couple of days!

Geohde said...

Hope those veins bode well for you,

J

Lea Bee said...

waiting to test is so hard! thinking about you.

Natalie said...

Ahhh, the symptom watch. Nothing like it is there? Can't help but do it? GOod luck, here's hoping:-)

Pamela T. said...

Hoping that those blue vein road maps lead to the destination you're after! (And as for the holiday, I'm thinking of getting out of the Xmas card business.)

Meg said...

oh, the loony days of the 2ww. you must wait to test! you can do it....

Jen said...

I'm with the other Jen...test now to make sure the trigger is out then you'll know for sure if a + at 11dpo is a real positive.

And I so wish I could go into hibernation. You know there are definitely days where I sort of do by lounging around the house and refusing to leave. Last Friday was a great example of that!

Maria said...

Mine always look like streaks of lightening. I never seem to have blue veins until my 2ww. I've also noticed they get stronger when I'm on the progesterone supps.

Like both Jen's said: I would test now, to see if the triggers out, so then on Sunday you'll know it's not a false BFP.

Yoka said...

I so hope that this is a promising sign. Since I am only two days behind you I am hoping for similar signs on Sunday...

Busted said...

I did the exact same thing with the boobs, even now that I know I'm pregnant. DH has often asked what the heck I'm doing when I'm staring at my breasteses in the mirror for minutes on end.

Sunny said...

Hoping for good things!

I usually laugh sarcastically at the letters and cards. I got my first one today. I made fun of the kids in my head. I too have quick sending cards. Our last one was a cute picture of our dog. Last year was going to be the two of us and my belly. It never happened. Why start it up again. If you want we can save them and have a burning together. HA!

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Question: I know that you have been referring to yourself as unexplained IF, but in one of your early posts I thought you said that Mr. H had low morphology... May I be nosy and ask: how low is low, and what did your RE say about it? I'm just looking for more info and more RE opinions:...because my DH has only 1% normal morphology by Kruger strict criteria. I hope you see this long-winded comment of mine, but if you don't, I'll just add it as a comment to your next post.