Sunday, November 4, 2007

Hope

I'm starting to lose it. Hope that is. Although I'm sure I will also lose 'it' before all this is said and done.

I'm an idiot and keep on POAS. Yesterday the line was much lighter and today it's almost gone. On the $ tree test you could barely see it. It was there on the First Response but so light. I'm trying to think objectively and realize that this was a chemical pregnancy. I think I'll have my pity party today so I can get on with my week tomorrow. My 2nd beta is scheduled for Tuesday and I have a killer day where I need to be able to function. I'm giving a training from 8:30-4 and then giving a workshop from 7-9. I'm not even sure when I'll be able to actually talk to my nurse. Maybe it's for the best, I won't have too much time to think.

This is so fucking unfair.

8 comments:

peesticksandstones said...
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Fertilize Me said...

Meghan-I am lost for words reading this. I know that there is no comfort in a time like this. But i want you to know that I am thinking of you and hoping that is comfort in itself. I am in tears just reading/writing this. You are in my thoughts

chicklet said...

Gawd, I'm so sorry this is happening. That you thought you might really be done, only to watch it suck you back in. Ugh.

Heather said...

I'm so sorry.

Geohde said...

Hon, I'm so sorry,

Thinking of you

xx

J

Lea Bee said...

thinking of you and sending you lots of hugs. i am still holding out hope, you never know. stranger things have happened.

LJ said...

This is just an awful wait you have to go through, I am so sorry and am thinking of you

jenna sais quoi said...

Oh Meghan!

I am so sorry, girlie.